Well, I have finally wrote down what has been going on with me for the last 3 months. I suppose that is progress despite that Im still suffering from depression and lack of drive to express myself socially, mentally, or emotionally (beyond being sad).

Still, Im lost. I dont know how to feel better or to go back to the cheery, carefree person I once was. Part of me wishes that i didnt care about principles that prevent me from beginning to express myself again.